smiling on the outside dying on the inside

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

Acesta este un re-post...
Am deviat de la planul initial cu cartile pentru ca am simtit nevoia sa arat ce fel ma simt acum,din nou...
De ce nu pot fi ca alti si sa dau cu piciorul la ceea ce simt? De ce doare atat de tare? De ce,de ce, de ce ???
... Vreau sa bat din palme si sa dispara totul :( ...Vreau sa uit...Vreau sa nu mai ma doara :( ...