i hate this part

De ce sta in firea omului sa minta? De ce suntem atat de prefacuti?...Sunt constienta de faptul ca uneori adevarul doare dar nu oare minciuna este cea care lasa rani mai adanci si mai dureroase in suflet decat un adevar mult prea dur? ... Pe zi ce trece imi dau seama ca fiecare om isi apara interesele chiar si in cele mai josnice moduri posibile iar sinceritatea nu isi mai are rostul in aceasta "ecuatie" .

Prea multe intrebari.Prea putine raspunsuri.

smiling on the outside dying on the inside

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

Acesta este un re-post...
Am deviat de la planul initial cu cartile pentru ca am simtit nevoia sa arat ce fel ma simt acum,din nou...
De ce nu pot fi ca alti si sa dau cu piciorul la ceea ce simt? De ce doare atat de tare? De ce,de ce, de ce ???
... Vreau sa bat din palme si sa dispara totul :( ...Vreau sa uit...Vreau sa nu mai ma doara :( ...

We have time

We have time for everything

Sleep, run back and forth,

regret we made a mistake and err again

judge others and absolve ourselves,

we have time to read and write,

edit what we wrote, regret what we wrote,

we have time to make projects and never follow through

we have time to dwell in illusions and stir through

their ashes much later.

We have time for ambitions and diseases,

to blame destiny and details,

we have time to look at the clouds, at the ads, or

some accident, we have time

to chase away our questions, postpone our answers, we

have time

to crush a dream and reinvent it, we have time to make

friends,

to lose them, we have time to take lessons and forget

them

soon after, we have time to receive gifts and not

understand them. We have time for everything.

No time, though, for a little tenderness.

When we’re about to do that, too, we die.

I learnt some things in life that I want to share with

you!!!



I learnt you can’t make somebody love you. All you can

do is be a beloved person. The rest…depends on the

others.

I learnt that however much I care,

Others might not care at all.

I learnt that it takes years to gain trust and that

you can lose it in just a few seconds.

I learnt that it doesn’t matter WHAT you have in life,

but WHOM.

I learnt you can get by and your charm is useful for

about 15 minutes. After that, however, you’d better

know something.

I learnt that you should not compare yourself to what

others can do better–

But to what you can do better.

I learnt that it doesn’t matter what happens to people

But what I can do to help them.

I learnt that no matter how you cut it,

Every thing has two faces.

I learnt you need to part with your loved ones with

warm words,

It might be the last time you see them.

I learnt that you can carry on for a long time

After you said you can’t.

I learnt that the heroes are those who do what’s

needed, when needed,

No matter what the consequences.

I learnt that there are people who love you,

But don’t know how to show it.

I learnt that when I am angry, I have THE RIGHT to be

angry.

But I don’t have the right to be a bastard, too.

I learnt that true friendship continues to exist even

at a distance. And this is also true for real love.

I learnt that, if somebody doesn’t love you like you

want them to,

It doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all their

heart.

I learnt that no matter how good a friend is,

He will nevertheless hurt you every once in a while,

And you’ve got to forgive him for this.

I learnt that it’s not always enough to be forgiven by

others.

Sometimes you’ve got to learn to forgive yourself

I learn that no matter how much you suffer,

The world won’t stop in its tracks because of your

pain.



I learnt that your past and circumstances might

influence your personality

But YOU are responsible for what you become.

I learnt that if two people argue, it doesn’t mean

they don’t love each other

And the fact that they don’t argue doesn’t prove they

love each other.

I learnt that sometimes you’ve got to put a person

first,

And not his deeds.

I learnt that two people can look at the same thing

And see two completely different things

I learnt that no matter what the consequences

Those who are honest with themselves go farther in

life. I learnt that your life can change in the course of a

few hours

By people who don’t even know you.

I learnt that when you think you’ve got nothing to

give

When a friend calls for you, you’ll find the strength

to help him.

I learnt that writing,

Just like talking,

Can soothe the pain in your soul.

I learnt the the people you love the most

Are taken away from you much too soon.

I learnt that it’s too hard to realize

Where to draw a line between being nice, not hurting

people, and standing up for your beliefs.

I learnt to love

So I can be loved.

I miss ...

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with eachother;for those were some of the best times of my life.

But being hurt by someone you truly care about leaves a hole in you heart that only love can fill...so i`m here waiting to love again...

Surasul

Din departarea inimii,
Traind pustiu, neprihanit,
Plutesc deasupra mimicii
Si nu mai pot sa fiu oprit.

Un sufletul ce-a fost candva,
Pustiu si inguratic,
Aievea isi va preschimba,
Surasu-i enigmatic.

Nimic din tot ceea ce-a fost,
Nu se va da uitarii,
Petrec rapus si fara rost,
O cazna a iubirii.

Surasul ce candva palea,
De clipa reintalnirii,
Acum... trecut precum o stea,
Sta-n culmea amintirii.

Nu voi sa nu mai stiu de tine,
Sa-mi numar zilele plangand,
Gandindu-ma la tot ce-i bine,
Lasandu-mi clipele pe-un rand.

As vrea, ca tot ce-n asta lume,
A pregetat blandete,
Brazdand Pamantul doar cu-n nume,
Preschimba-se-n tristete.

Surasul lin, care-n trecut,
Impresara sarutul,
Haotic, devenind placut,
Va intreprinde totul.



...Iubirea e un sărut furat, un zâmbet inocent, o îmbrăţişare pătimaşă...şi un suflet smuls din piept...